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For Dray Emerald, it all started back in Grade 11 when he was sixteen years old, when life was simple and he know who he was and how to be happy. That's when he had a crush on the perfect girl, Anna Markus. But when she moved away from their hometown of Smithers, British Columbia, everything began to change. Dray, a once-perfect Mormon boy-turns his back on his faith and family and gets caught up in a world of drugs and alcohol. He gets kicked out of the rich and privileged life his parents have handed him. Planning on hitting the road without ever looking back, fate keeps him in town for one last summer. At the age of seventeen, he finds himself living in his own apartment. For the first time in his life, the possibilities are endless. He has the chance to win over Anna, who's back in town for summer break, but he's torn between her and the lovely Rose Miller, his hometown sweetheart and longtime friend. Things slowly tilt into place as the seasons change. By coming to terms with the world around him-his friends, family, and his hometown of Smithers-he nears closer to solving the mystery in his heart.

How We'd Look on Film Kai Gorbahn 9781475902501 Books

One infers that Gorbahn would have preferred this book to have been a film, if he had had the budget. How we would look, in any event, depends considerably on whether the work is fiction or autobiography. Like most first novels, this one is autobiographical, perhaps less thinly disguised, one guesses, than most. The motive for writing is presumably to be understood—but not too well: To be understood is also to be found out. Literal autobiography can be constraining, in protecting significant others if not ourselves. Fiction allows us to say whatever we want, but then it is not really ourselves who are portrayed. The dilemma thus poses an interesting puzzle for the reader, to try to fill in the gaps and trim the parts that don’t fit, to make a coherent story. There is one missing piece here which is particularly conspicuous, in rendering Dray psychologically unreal, at least to a reader of an older generation. He identifies himself on the third page as a “drama-fag,” as casually as he identifies his best friend Eric as a jock. There are many remarks made by others about the two of them being gay, but none of these have any visible impact on Dray. He has the requisite narcissism, not only in writing a book about himself, but giving it a title focusing on appearances. Girls throw themselves at him, and he appears uninterested, reinforcing general suspicions. His serious hesitations with girls—refraining from kissing them so they won’t regret it in the morning—could well be believable for a boy brought up to see girls as objects of worship but not desire—and there is no reason to doubt his attraction to them. So it is not necessarily to be inferred that he is really gay. The anomaly is his utter lack of concern about the issue under the circumstances. It may well be possible for a straight young man today to be so indifferent to being commonly perceived as gay; the world has come a long way in the 50 years since I was in high school. But for a Mormon kid in a small town in the middle of nowhere, it’s a serious stretch. Add to this his vagueness about why he felt rejected by his parents and left home; we hear only that he wasn’t living up to his father’s expectations. Questions about sexual attraction may not, in fact, be the only thing lacking an acknowledgment: As intent as Dray was in demonstrating this his life wasn’t worth living, it would be surprising if he also didn’t have some thoughts about suicide along the way. His overarching problem is that, as he says early in the book, he didn’t feel that his life was chosen, but rather scripted for him. In what would have to be called typical adolescent fashion, he makes it his own simply by doing the opposite of what he is supposed to. The thrill of his first puff on a cigarette—a butt he picked up off the street—is intoxicating. He retains enough sense to recognize how poorly that course is working for him. His former life looks more appealing once had can experience it as chosen, as his own. One hopes that he can see more alternatives than anomie and Mormonism. And that he meets enough happy bisexuals to see that, whatever your pattern of relationships, you can enjoy attractions across the spectrum of gender. There may be material here for an interesting sequel, which would presumably have to start with an acknowledgment that the perfect woman who walks into his life on the next-to-last page is pure (desperate?) fantasy.

Literarily, Gorbahn has done a very convincing job of making the book—the narrative, and not just the dialogue—look as though it were written by a high school dropout: There are grammatical errors on practically every page, starting with “There was chickadees” (p. 3). The cleverest and most memorable example is “the scent of shampoo permuting from her hair” (p. 73).

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  • Paperback 374 pages
  • Publisher iUniverse (April 17, 2012)
  • Language English
  • ISBN-10 9781475902501
  • ISBN-13 978-1475902501
  • ASIN 1475902506

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I really appreciated an honest look at just how quickly an unchecked lifestyle begins to spin out of control.
Wonderful honest account of the excitement and challenges of becoming an adult today in a rural Canadian town. An amazingly good work of fiction by an up and coming young author. Highly recommended!
One infers that Gorbahn would have preferred this book to have been a film, if he had had the budget. How we would look, in any event, depends considerably on whether the work is fiction or autobiography. Like most first novels, this one is autobiographical, perhaps less thinly disguised, one guesses, than most. The motive for writing is presumably to be understood—but not too well To be understood is also to be found out. Literal autobiography can be constraining, in protecting significant others if not ourselves. Fiction allows us to say whatever we want, but then it is not really ourselves who are portrayed. The dilemma thus poses an interesting puzzle for the reader, to try to fill in the gaps and trim the parts that don’t fit, to make a coherent story. There is one missing piece here which is particularly conspicuous, in rendering Dray psychologically unreal, at least to a reader of an older generation. He identifies himself on the third page as a “drama-fag,” as casually as he identifies his best friend Eric as a jock. There are many remarks made by others about the two of them being gay, but none of these have any visible impact on Dray. He has the requisite narcissism, not only in writing a book about himself, but giving it a title focusing on appearances. Girls throw themselves at him, and he appears uninterested, reinforcing general suspicions. His serious hesitations with girls—refraining from kissing them so they won’t regret it in the morning—could well be believable for a boy brought up to see girls as objects of worship but not desire—and there is no reason to doubt his attraction to them. So it is not necessarily to be inferred that he is really gay. The anomaly is his utter lack of concern about the issue under the circumstances. It may well be possible for a straight young man today to be so indifferent to being commonly perceived as gay; the world has come a long way in the 50 years since I was in high school. But for a Mormon kid in a small town in the middle of nowhere, it’s a serious stretch. Add to this his vagueness about why he felt rejected by his parents and left home; we hear only that he wasn’t living up to his father’s expectations. Questions about sexual attraction may not, in fact, be the only thing lacking an acknowledgment As intent as Dray was in demonstrating this his life wasn’t worth living, it would be surprising if he also didn’t have some thoughts about suicide along the way. His overarching problem is that, as he says early in the book, he didn’t feel that his life was chosen, but rather scripted for him. In what would have to be called typical adolescent fashion, he makes it his own simply by doing the opposite of what he is supposed to. The thrill of his first puff on a cigarette—a butt he picked up off the street—is intoxicating. He retains enough sense to recognize how poorly that course is working for him. His former life looks more appealing once had can experience it as chosen, as his own. One hopes that he can see more alternatives than anomie and Mormonism. And that he meets enough happy bisexuals to see that, whatever your pattern of relationships, you can enjoy attractions across the spectrum of gender. There may be material here for an interesting sequel, which would presumably have to start with an acknowledgment that the perfect woman who walks into his life on the next-to-last page is pure (desperate?) fantasy.

Literarily, Gorbahn has done a very convincing job of making the book—the narrative, and not just the dialogue—look as though it were written by a high school dropout There are grammatical errors on practically every page, starting with “There was chickadees” (p. 3). The cleverest and most memorable example is “the scent of shampoo permuting from her hair” (p. 73).
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